I occasionally google my email address to see if I'm stalkable and this link came up:

http://jibros.com/search?search=interest%3Anear+miss

It is the exact same profile on my livejournal from a few years ago. You should try yours too.
By any chance, can someone read the foreign language?
Coz I am stumped.

116 days until i go to Japan on exchange
which means that I won't be seeing Ben for ages when I go :(
I freak out and think that he will forget about me
he is by far the best guy I have ever EVER been with
I am very smitten with him :) He makes me so very happy
I hope he doesn't forget me :(

Found a quiz thingy on myspace that i had done in 2005
didnt read it but i wanna do it again and compare the answers

TODAY'S QUIZ!!!!!

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey

Name: Kara
Birthday: 11/02/87
Birthplace: Canberra
Current Location: Canberra
Eye Color: Blue
Hair Color: Dyed Dark brown (naturally light/medium brown)
Height: 5 foot 6, or 167cms
Right Handed or Left Handed: Righty baby
Your Heritage: Aussie with quarter Italian, Irish, Scottish and an 8th German and English

The Shoes You Wore Today: Slip ons, don't like shoes since my ankle reconstruction
Your Weakness: Tickling, food, too nice occasionally (until i fire up), annoying and apparently needy
Your Fears: people i love dying, people not liking me
Your Perfect Pizza: hmmmm, chicken and avocardo

Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: go to Japan, tell ben how i feel about him :), lose 5 kgs
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: omg, lol, brb
Thoughts First Waking Up: hungry, horny, help me... yyeeeeessssssssss....
Your Best Physical Feature: my eyebrows and eyelashes until they malted. i have a firm arse but it's fat, pretty biggish boobs, hmmm, nice hair i guess
Your Bedtime: when i am tired
Your Most Missed Memory: having lots of friends

Pepsi or Coke: coke, i hate pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King: maccaz i guess, they have chicken burgers that aren't processed
Single or Group Dates: single. i dont mind group ones occassionally though
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Ice tea, i am addicted
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: water, or coke

Do you Smoke: i have, but don't
Do you Swear: too often
Do you Sing: again, too often
Do you Shower Daily: atleast once, sometimes twice
Have you Been in Love: yes. but then your heart breaks :) but ben is awesome :)

Do you want to go to College: i been to college, that's year 11 and 12 here. but yes. i'm at uni
Do you want to get Married: yes, deff, but not now, and only if it's with someone i love/who loves me/wants the same outcomes/etc, not because i have to
Do you belive in yourself: never
Do you get Motion Sickness: too much, even walking does it to me
Do you think you are Attractive: fuck no, i hate my appearance
Are you a Health Freak: was, now i'm a fatty
Do you get along with your Parents: when dad doesn't call me fat, rarely though, that's why i move out
Do you like Thunderstorms: i dig em, they are so pretty
Do you play an Instrument: used to play piano. i can play a bit of "Silverchair-Freak" on guitar thanks to Ben

In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes but not much
In the past month have you Smoked: nope, smoking kills people
In the past month have you been on Drugs: nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date: with ben yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: just got home
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: yep
In the past month have you been on Stage: nope
In the past month have you been Dumped: hope not! nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: nope, this year i have though :)
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: i'm gonna say... hmmm, ben's heart? (puke!) :) hehe

Ever been Drunk: yep
Ever been called a Tease: yep, today
Ever been Beaten up: yep, fuck you Flynn Primary
Ever Shoplifted: yep, lollipops at a young age
How do you want to Die: orgasming
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: a firetruck. or maybe a p.e/japanese teacher
What country would you most like to Visit: Japan, Canada, all of Europe, China, USA, South East Asian countries and Pacific Island countries

In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: usually blue/green but ben's deep brown eyes make me cream my panties
Favourite Hair Color: dark. no offence, but i hate blondes. i like dark
Short or Long Hair: short or dredlocks
Height: taller
Weight: heavier (coz i'm fatty apparently)
Best Clothing Style: none ;)

Number of Drugs I have taken: hmmm, just weed, tobaco and alcohol, then over the counter drugs like panadole aslo, but i assume this is 'bad ones'
Number of CDs I own: maybe 150?
Number of Piercings: 6 (ear lobex2, tragis, cartilage, belly and rook)
Number of Tattoos: 2 (family in japanese and Carpe Diem)
Number of things in my Past I Regret: well technically none, coz i've learnt my lesson, but i'd say over eating, dating marty and not telling ben every moment how much i like him




Quiz From 25th July 2005, 5:08 PM:

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog&Mytoken=11491816-997B-4DA6-98FBE2EA2A627DFC101001321

(You can only view if you are a friend of mine)

What do you reckon Ben would do if I stared wearing this?




One good reason to never shop at Supre

was just at coles visiting ben and getting my normal stash of push pops

at the registers there was a dude with two kids, both with icecreams
the son asked his dad if he could have a bottle of water, it was the pump brand with the convenient cap on it ($3.20) . the dad said "no, get the one above it" (just mount franklin, 100ml less but only $2.10) then the dad changed his mind and said, "actually don't worry, i'll buy you both a coke"

no wonder the western world (including us eastern australians) are getting fat
coke and goon are cheaper then plain old tap water in a pretty container.
makes you wonder...

I have the best byfriend in the world and I feel so lucky
Couldn't imagin being with anyone else, nor would I want to be
I am truely blessed, not in the religous way, just in general
He is so perfect

私はベンさんを愛しています。


But shhhhh don't tell him, i haven't even told him yet!

Funnily enough, I got this from a forwarded email...


( Click me! )

私の名前はカーラで、２１歳です。キャンベラ大学生です。私は体育の教職と日本語の教職を勉強しています。
今年、日本に行くつもりです。　２００８年９月から２００９年４月、岡山大学で留学をするつもりです。日本人や岡山大学生と話したいです。
私の趣味はスポーツと音楽を聞くことです。

どうぞよろしくお願いします！

i had a bit of an emo moment before

generally i had an awesome day, i woke up next to ben (whether i was sick or not, it was still good. my throat hurt though). i spent the morning with him. then we showered and met up again for a late lunch. after watching dvds for a while i asked if he was bored and he said yes which was understandable but i felt guilty for it.
then i hit emo point. just a few things making me sad. me being really sick. alice. leaving ben while i'm in japan. not having many close friends. mum is a bit cranky recently. uni. etc

he stayed and we chatted for over an hour afterwards in which i cried again about goin to japan. honestly you big baby, you're going to japan to study, its an experience that not many have.
i am just scared that i'll miss everyone. i have this crazy and unreasonable fear of people i love dying. i feel that if i am not around people will die/. it's not like i can do anything about it but i believe that this fear stems back to childhood and the relationship between the perceptions oi have of my parents divorce and not seeing either of them much as i was growing up. point it, i am scared that i will lose someone i love.

had another bad dream about a big building this morning. i had to save my sister in law and i was struggling. i hate those dreams where i am a hero but cant function properly

anyways
i have been sick recently
on tuesday arvo i went to a doctor to see them about my knee (for a 4th oppinion) and also i was feeling ill and missed class
i had a low grade fever and sore throat, head, sinus, etc. but i was fine to play basketball that night, i just wanted to miss class. anyways i get my 3rd (and final thank fuck) cervical cancer vacination which apparently was not a good idea. i had a reaction to it coz i was already sick. my fever skyrocketed that night. halfway through my basketball game (which i could hardly jog through, i was walking) i had to sit out. emily (lachlan's sister) went and bought me painkillers, cough lollies, lemons, and chocolate to help me feel better. i was honestly fucked. i was sweating but cold. i vomited in the shower (dont tell my house mates!)and i was shaking all over). ben was meant to come over but didnt. probably best as i was like that most of the night and had no control over coughing/sweating etc
i kept calling his name though, i'd wake up and call out 'Ben' but i dunno why.

anyway i am getting better but still ill. missed netball tonight and not going out as i usually do on a thursday which sucks coz it is the only night i really get to see anyone apart from ben. i mean, it's his friends but i hung out with them before ben and i dated and i would hangout with them if ben wasnt there too. i did see carla the other day which was awesome. but she is busy alot and stressed from the whole fulltime job with part time job on the side. i'd hate to be working 13 hour days. that would suck.

i am home alone tonight but i think i will have a bubble bath once tim comes home, has a shower and leaves again.
my tv is being gay. it isnt getting ABC or Ten but i guess that's coz its not digital and is much older than i am. which makes it a piece of crap. so watching the swimming trials for the olympics to keep a good background sound thing going on. i was trying to figure out why one dude was wearing red nail polish but then i realised his name was Libby Tricket (from QLD in the 100m freestyle) and was indeed a chick. theyt are buff. ooooh a world record was beaten. steroids!

anyway. i had that japanese test last week. i thought it was at 1:30 so at 12:30 i hadnt studied all of it and was having lunch, looking oer my notes when i saw "Japanese Thursday 12:30" and ran to my class without lunch or study. i got 82%. i thought i was gonna get around 65

oh that Libby chick was the winner, she even looks like a dude. good on her for winning
alrighty i might go read a book. adios all

Today i woke up emotional and hungover. I was out last night at the lighty as per usual for a thursday night. I wasnt drunk and i wasn't having a great time anyway
not gonna drink for a while
makes me feel sick
makes me feel angry and sad

i am feeling abit ill today as a result of it
or at least i think so

mum rung me this morning. and she was close to crying. i hate hearing someone i love cry. especially mum. i started crying as a result. it would have been ok if i was alone but poor ben had to put up with my whinning and crying. also i was a bit emotional about being a total loner last night. i wont go into stuff. i am really tired. plus lazy

i feel ill

Esoteric kind of means obscure... must use this in a sentance one day

For my 21st birthday, my Brother and his Wife Jo got me a Meet a Cheetah pass at the National Zoo and Aquarium in Canberra. It. Was. Awesome :)
Here are some of the Meet a Cheetah pictures:

( Meet A Cheetah Pictures )



Other Favourites include:


( Favourites from Aquarium and Reptile House )



I'll have to leave it there for now. Getting presents for my oldest mate. It' her 21st today
I'll return to do the rest....


( Favorites from the rest of the park )

Was at Ben's this morning
finally caught the 2nd blue tongue lizard that has been avoiding me for some time, took a few atempts, it outsmarted me :(

here are the pictures :)

( Pictures )


How Cute

Ben is gorgeous :)

until my 21st celebrations. my birthday is monday though.

21. i had a bit of an emo moment to ben before. saying how fast things go when you want them to go slow and visa versa
it got pretty deep. i dont wanna re live it again

fuck man, what comes next though? Marriage Kids Morgage?
heck. the good years are more then half over!

it doesnt help that mum has printed thousands of photos off of me from all ages. they bring back memories but kinda painful.

i didnt really realise how much my parent's divorce has effected large parts of my life
i just put it at the back of my mind and leave it there as a silent reminder.

i was always smilling in photos. i looked happy
what the hell happened?

i guess i grew up

anyways. i went 9 days without my cipramil and almost killed someone.


i dyed my hair tonight
dark golden brown
should turn out well i hope

i'm gonna go to bed
i am too tired to write anything

ciao

3 days away
and tomorrow is the partay....

i wanna end up like this by the end of the night:


or like this:




should be a fun night

and 6 days and counting until my 21st

and that means 4 days until my party

Melissa are you still flying over from the states to meet me and attend my party?
remember to dress up or you wont be let in haha

7 days and counting....

to batemans bay
hooray!

it was good. i went with Lachlan's youngest sister who turned 17 in november. although there is 3 years and 9 months difference in our age, i get along better with emily then with the middle child lucy (2 and a half years difference). ofcourse, lachlan is my best mate though

anyways. on the way down it rained, i was annoyed coz i wanted a sunny day
but we still had fun

it was cloudy
we went to surf beach first
lots of waves. lots of bikini issues
we then ate lunch and went looked at the rock pools

then to caseys beach. i like to call it the "childcare center" there are no waves so it is a calm kind of hang out beach.
although
we were just hanging out in the water and i felt this huge sting first on my left calf then a few seconds later above my right knee.
swearing at the top of my voice i swam as quick as i could to the shore.
there was no fucking mark. emily thought i was lying until a few seconds later this big buff tough looking dude about 30 meters away from us made the same desperate attempt to leave the water

as we were driving to the next beach the sting area had swollen up. i had welts all over the area. now atleast em knew i wasnt lying.

at the next beach there were heaps of lizards. i wanted to catch one but i was a bit slow without shoes and now with lovely giant welts.
we went to the water and em caught me a hermit crab, it was so cute and small
i let him walk around on my hand and try and nip me a bit before returning him to the water
good bye little hermy

in the town we went shopping a bit before returning home. i had to stop on the way back because i was so fatigued and dizzy, not sure if that was the now apparent sunburn (forgot to re-apply sunscreen) or the sting i attained or the low blood pressure?

when we got home i stayed for dinner. Lachlan's parents are too nice to me. they feed me and always want me over.
Lachlan is coming home a week early yay!
cant wait.

it is now.... 11 days until my party and 13 days until my actual 21st
scary

1. Tell you why I friended you.
2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a color, a photo, a word etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
7. In return, you must post this in your LJ.

suffering heat stroke / sun stroke
should not tan in the sun while drinking bubbly
i have a hangover at 2pm and work in an hour

3 sleeps until ben returns... hoorah

and to the coast tomorrow with Lachlan's sister Emily

all is looking up today really. only a 5 hour shift. nice day
see both my parents
got drunk at 10am
ergh champaine breakies are the worst